I cried tonight....  / Mommy

November 5, 2007


Journey Marie,
                       Your daddy finally had enough courage to put your dresser together this weekend and he finished it tonight.  It looks so pretty, so momma started to clean up a bit, and I got really sad.  I started to cry but your daddy was there to hug me.  I miss sweetie, and some days I feel like its just not fair .    I cant wait til I get to see and hold you in heaven, until then I know Jesus will take good care of you.  

love always
your Momma 

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Hugs From Heaven  / Vicki Momma To Angel Emalee Rain

Hugs From Heaven

When you feel a gentle breeze
Caress you when you sigh
It's a hug from Heaven
From a loved one way up high.

If a soft and tender raindrop
Lands upon your nose
They've added a small kiss
As fragile as a rose.

If a song you hear fills you
With feeling of sweet love
It's a hug from Heaven
From someone up above.

If you awaken in the morning
To a bluebird's chirping song
It's music sent from Heaven
To cheer you all day long.

If little tiny snowflakes
Land upon your face
It's a hug from Heaven
Trimmed with Angel lace.

So keep the joy in your heart
If you're lonely my dear friend
Hugs that are sent from Heaven
A broken heart will mend.

Sending you hugs from Heaven and a great big one from me too!Friend my arms are around you as you travel on this journey, your not alone! I keep you in my heart always!
~Emalee Rain's~ Momma

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condolence from slovakia  / Sandra

Iam so sorry for your loss :(((( It is so horrible to read what happen to your sweet baby girl and to you :(((( I dont know you but read your sad life story is very heartbreak for me ..iam so sorry i can find a words for it :((( Iam sure that you are very strong person.I have 2 children and i cant imagine if i could lost one of them ..really i think iam not so strong..and sure my life then cant will go on.A little help what can i do fo u is sending u a good wishes and hugs.your baby girl is always with you ...just a body passed away..soul live forever..and once you meet her again and forever.Your babygirl was and is beautiful little angel -Iam sorry for my poor english.with my best wishes and hugs to you and little angel in heaven.xxxx

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Missing you...  / Mommy

Hello angel, mommy has had a really bad day for some reason.  Im just missing you so much today.  Life is so not fair without you here, I try hard not to cry so much but I just cant help it.  My heart hurts, it is broken and I know it will never be completely healed.    Everyone asks, How are you?  Momma tells them Im ok, or Im fine. I would never tell them if I wasnt ok, what if I broke down in tears and said I was awful, then what, those ppl wouldnt know what to do.  So I just say Im fine, and let everyone think I am normal, but I will never again be normal.  Journey mommy just hopes and prays that Jesus and all your angel friends and your grandmothers are taking good care of you.  I miss you so much sweetie, please send some of your love down from heaven and tell Jesus to help heal my heart.  I love you baby!!

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Happy Halloween!  / Vicki Momma To Angel Emalee Rain
                           

Sending you happy thoughts from ~Emalee ~ and her Family! Close

Happy halloween  / Sarah Mummy 2. ~*~ Joshua Blakeway
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Glad u saw ur balloon-  / Lori Mommy 2. Twins Kinsey And Kylee (loving friend )
I'm so glad u saw Journeys balloon-wish I would have had my friend take pics of all my angel babies balloons-there are unfortunatly too many-so she just snapped a few random ones. Our night turned out nice, my Pastor and his wife are so good to us and brought books for resources, played a song by Natalie Grany called " Held"-it's so pretty. But anyway the lady who makes all our cakes, donated the cake for our celebration and I bought some cider and we just gathered and read off all the names and released, it was pretty, I had so many names, I put 2 names on each balloon, and finally made one balloon in honor of every angel baby in heaven, didnt want to forget anybody. I hope ur night went smooth, these things are so hard, but I feel so honored that others, people like you remember my girls, it helps us grieve the way we need too, it helps us heal. Brians parents actually showed up, this is the first time they have , but none of his other family did and it makes me so mad ....oh well, we have friends like you, and I know we havent met, and I dont know anything about you, other than you are now a part of this awful "club" and you honor my girls, thats all I need to know. Ive met so many neat people through this site, I  wish I could meet everyone of you. Maybe someday we can orchestrate a big gathering somewhere in the middle...that would be so fun. I see that u went to school for your LPN? I visited your webpage awhile back-thats good, I start Monday on my 34th b-day in Boise, it's an 11 month course thenI can hopefully bridge into the RN program they are supposed to start in Feb. Either way as long as I can be a nurse in L&D I'll be happy. Wish me luck, it's been along time since Ive been in school. I pray for you and your husband-I hope Christ brings you healing and comfort. Hes there for you...Oh no I don't have myspace, I sprnd so much time here there is noway i could handle another page to keep up with, but I wish I could have some of your friends make me some cool graphics, your s are so pretty, Talk to you soon and know that Im thinking of u always-God Bless, love, lori Close

Momma's Angel  / Mommy
Journey Marie,
                             I hope you liked all the balloons that we sent up to heaven for you and all your angel friends.  And that candle mommy made especially for you with your name on it.  I miss you baby girl, you know how mommy is, everything has to be just perfect.  Daddy really misses you too, he cried tonight, we wish you were here with us.  Some days are harder than others and tonight just was a little harder after we got back from your gravesite and ceremony.  You are a beautiful little angel, one day we will hold you again in our arms...... I love you sweetie!!! Close

b / Sarah Mummy 2. ~*~ Joshua Blakeway
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Thank you Baby Journey  / Mandi Taylor (friend of mommy's )
My dearest Journey,
I just wanted to say that I hope you are having a beautiful day in heaven.  I hope you and Jesse are becoming good angel friends.  I know one thing...since heaven got you and Jesse, it is probably even more beautiful now then it was before.  I thank you and my boy for bringing your mommy and I together.  She is a wonderful woman and a terrific mom.  I am sure you are proud of her.  Send her and your grandma's a lot of angel kisses and keep them safe in you precious wings.
With a lot of love and many prayers,
Mandi, mommy to your angel friend, Jesse
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angel / Grammy Howell (grandmother)
journey, your mommy is on a mission, and if i know her as well as i think she will accomplish that mission, your mommy is a very strong women, and she is right i know your grandmothers has u spoiled, i cant wait till the day i can spoil u to, but in my heart i do have u spoiled, i will love you every single day, and there will not be a day goes by that i wont think of u. i love u so much sweetie, u r the most beautiful baby. Close

Mommy's on a mission  / Mommy

Hello Sweetheart!!  Mommy is on a mission, I have been working really hard lately on trying to spread the word about Oct15th and getting candles lit for you and all of your angel friends.  I miss you so much, and I just want everyone to continue to remember you just as much as Daddy and I do.  Nadia looks in your bassinet for you sometimes when we go in your room.   I think all the pups miss you too, they know you were suppose to be here but they help mommy get through tough times.  I hope that your grandmothers are taking good care of you, Im sure you are spoiled rotten!!  And now you can be pappy's little indian baby like Mommy once was.  Love you sweetie!!!!!!!

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praying for your family  / Christy Gardenhour
I am sorry to read of your loss. My daughter gave birth to a beautiful baby boy June 30 2007. He too ,is an Angel baby. He was stillborn also. As a grandma who has lost her first grandchild I know it hurts,I can't begin to understand the pain you and my daughter,and many others are feeling. I know I pray for her and her husband everyday and now I will keep you in my prayers also. Maybe Journey and Jesse have met and are watching over all us. Won't it be a wonderful day when we all are reunited and you and my daughter can hold your babies for ever!!
God Bless you and your family and give you strength to get through each day!
Angel Jesse's Grandma
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Sending you my prayers  / Vicki Momma To Angel Emalee Rain

I know words can't take away the pain you are feeling , I too lost my precious baby. I know your feelings of guilt and sadness. I am so sorry for your loss and that your family is having to go through this. The only comfort is knowing you have a sweet angel watching over you and that one day she will be in your arms again. I hope Journey and Emalee are playing together and watching over us until we see them again. I know how difficult it is to continue on with life. I find it hard to even breath sometimes.   I have found it hard to talk to family and friends because they do not like to see me in such pain. I try to keep my tears from them. It is also difficult to talk to them because they have never experienced anything like this. All they can say is "I can only imagine". So know that I am here for you if you need a friend that understands. You can e-mail me anytime at smilingbackatu@aol.com if you ever need to talk and feel free to visit Emalee's site at http://emalee-rain-galamore.memory-of.com we love to hear from her Angel friends.  Again I am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby. She is now in God's arms and playing with his Angels. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. 
With love from one Mother to another, Vicki

YOUR JOURNEY

Don't think of her as gone away-
her Journey's just begun,

Life holds so many facets-
this earth is only one.

Just think of her as resting
from the sorrows and the tears,
in a place of warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years.

Think how she must be wishing
that we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.

And think of her as living
in the hearts of those she touched...
for nothing loved is ever lost-
and she was loved so much.

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October 15th ~ made with Love  / Sarah Mummy 2. ~*~ Joshua Blakeway
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Hi Journey  / Lori Mommy 2. Twins Kinsey And Kylee (another angel mom )
Sweet Journey-This is my first visit to your beautiful sight, it wont be my last, I've added you to my favorites, I hope you don't mind. I know you don't know me yet, but I'm sure you've met my angel twin girls, Kinsey Ellen and Kylee Lillian, they hopefully met you at the gated and showed you around, but Oh there are so many beautiful angels that i know were there too. All these angels knew you were on your way, cause Jesus told em so, so I know they had all ur favorite toys and pets and blankees too. The neatest thing is Journey, here in heaven you don't have a bedtime, but mostly you get so tired from playing with all ur angel friends that u want to go to bed anyway, You can have alll the yummy treats (Formula) whats that? Lets see, toys, pets, blankees,friends relatives, but the very best thing, JESUS reads us our bedtime stories...we are so lucky arent we. But we know too that your mommy and daddy and grammies and grampies and aunts and uncle all ur relatives they miss u so so much and their hearts hurt and they are even angry at Jesus, but thats okay, he knows they hurt, he wraps his arms around them and wipes their tears, someday they wont be angry, they will always miss you and greive and long for you, but they wont be angry, cause Jesus will help. Kelly, I am so sad, and I cried when I read your wonderful Normal...it's been almost 3 years for me, I still cry and get so excited when people light candles, I have made so many new friends on this site, it has been so healing for us. Our families dont really say much (my sister does but she lives so far away) Brians family just makes me mad, no-one ever mentions them and have never been to the site, I've sent t hem so many invites and links, so ifeel it's up to us to support each other, I see u have a wonder support of your family, feel blessed, I long for that, anyway I was wondering where you got the personalized "stillborn" icon, I would love to have one for my girls, MAy you be blessed each day, visit anytime, we love you and your angel Journey, Lori

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your in my thoughts  / Theresa Weller (friend)
chris I see you everyday at work I don't know what to say so I just smile and go on. my heart goes out to you both! I didn't know your little angel was born on my son Andrews birthday so I feel a special bond with her, ever year we celebrate his birthday she will always be in my thoughts. God bless you both! Close

A mommy with a gift!  / Mel Dahmer (Friend)
Jesus,

Please tell Journey she has a strong mommy.  Daddy said mommy helped another mommy & grandmaw yesterday. Your daddy says mommy is a strong woman.  He loves you and mommy very much.  I think your mommy has a gift to help other mommys and she is beautiful just like you.  Daddy has two very beautiful girls.  I know that you all will be together again in heaven. You help your mommy be strong Journey.  Think of you all often. You have a wonderful mommy and daddy!  Close

Jesus & Journey  / Pastor Jonathan Laye
Journey is in heaven with Jesus and Jesus has her in His sight all the time.  Jesus has the ability to speak to Journey and He listens to us when we speak to Him, therefore H can relay our messages to those who are with Him.  Another reason for us to live close to Jesus all the time.  My prayers are always with you.  Pastor Laye Close

Your family is in my thoughts and prayers  / Amy Miller (mommy's coworker )
The website is a great way to remember and to pay tribute to your little girl. I felt like I was right there with you and I cried right along with you. She was so perfect and peaceful in the pictures. I know I can't say I know how you feel and that I know what you are going through, but as a mom I can just imagine the feelings and emotions you have.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Close